For You

Hi best friend!

right now you must feels like wanna run away right?
huhu..jangan tinggal aku.
We already expect this situation right?
Well...as I said, you took such a big risk.
You should know the consequences on what you did.
Me as friend, remain stay behind you.
in case, you will fall...

Looking at the situation now, and count in your true feelings which is 50-50
i think my best solution is to leave both of them.
Things getting complicated after J knows the truth.
Even J not knowing the whole story yet, I bet he will know as time passes.
Since you have the chance now, just be honest.
Explain to J what you feel right now.
Explain every single things..what you actually want in life.
Keep lying is the wrong thing to do. Sure it will getting worst. Trust me.

And same goes to P.
Even he doesn't know anything now, but sure you will 'kantoi' soon.
And you know well what kind of person P is right? Do not try him.
He is totally  fell for you now..
And sure if you ignore P so suddenly will rise many questions from him.
So, you have to do it slowly..do not let him caught u with other guy!
Get distance as far as you can.
You can create many excuses like busy, tired etc..(just same like man did to woman)
I know it might be hard for you, but please TRY HARD until you know what you really want.
Better to stop halfway rather than moving to the dead end.

If you leave J and maintain your relationship with P, that is not fair for J.
Unless you has confirmed your heart to P.
Think about this weekend plan. You will drag more people into your problem. 

Letting go them both is fairly enough for them. and for you as well.
And please use that 'single' time to restrain your mind and back to your sense.
If they willing to wait for you, up to them. Do not decide anything till you very sure.
We both know clearly what we want in our life.
And please think of bright future waiting in front of you now. No one can decide for you.
Just you, yourself.

Remember, sympathy is not love.  

Kalau ada jodoh, tak lari ke mana. 

Me still there with you if u lose both them. We can find our Mr.right together. hehe

Cheers! :)